its been a while...i have no idea why i actually still love you...but this is what i have to say...
I wish you would just realize that we are supposed to be together. There is no one else in this world that I have felt completely myself with and I know the same is for you. I brought out a side of you people have never seen before; I hadn't ever seen before. A side of you that was wonderful and exciting. It was supposed to be me. Me and you. Always.
I miss your voice, your laugh, your eyes, your smile, your warm body. Most of all, I miss how I felt when I was with you. Like there was no time, no worry; like the casino, I went all in a hoped for the best, played my hand, and lost. Lost everything, even our friendship.
They tell me everything will be the same in time. To have faith, but having faith is killing me more and more everyday because I know it will never be the same; it can't be, but I still wish for it, everyday. I would still do anything for you. I knew from the start that it was going to suck when it ended. I even knew that it was going to end apparently. I just wish/hope/pray someday you'll realize that I was good for you...
i genuinely in the first time in my life loved a girl...
